I just can’t be mean even if I tried.

I have two homeless former friends.  However, this post is about the former friend that I knew since we were 14-years-old.  I had enough reading his self-pitying tweets how he was saying no one would help him.  I was bored so I kept checking up on his Twitter even though we hadn’t talked in 3 years.  He was complaining about offing himself and how he’s a disappointment to his mother and family.  His younger brother is already dead and now he’s a failure.  I said the following things to him so he wouldn’t be a failure to his family.

Rather than being mean and rejoicing in his failures for what he did to me, I decided to send him a text to see if he would listen to what I say…especially when he says how no one wants to help him.

I had texted him on a Google Voice number and didn’t say who I was.  We hadn’t talked in 3 years.  And even though we didn’t talk in 3 years he knew who I was without saying my name, lmao!  I’m thinking what a jackass.  He ended a 14+ year old friendship for no reason.  And now he’s complaining about his other friends who he knew for 14 years doing that to him and he did that to me.

I told him I was not mad anymore for what he did since he’s got bigger issues being homeless in San Francisco and no one helping him.

I will not give him any money but I told him how he could make some money fast.

I gave him some ideas of how to get out of the hot sun and cold nights.

I said I would work two jobs and work until midnight, that way I would have a place to go and I’m making money while I’m at it.  Then, he would make enough for a hotel.

He could also write books for 99 cents.

As soon as he gets money he needs to pay off his car first so he doesn’t have any more major bills and he will have a vehicle to travel around in.

I also suggested a gym membership – place to shower – it looks like a friend helped him with a membership which is good.

I told him how when I had no job no one helped me and I had to overdraft and take out cash advances because I can only count on very few people.

So he won’t get any money from me, but I could give him some valuable advice.

I told him he can ignore me or he can still be homeless and complain about being a failure.  It’s whatever he wants to do.

I’m curious if he will listen to my advice or not.  And working two jobs will keep him busy to not think about being homeless and having no place to go all the time.

Cali Rent & Blessings

Today, I hung out with my crush for half a day.

While we’re at the gym on the treadmill, the topic of conversation was these ridiculous $4 million dollar homes in California.

He asked me what would I do: would I get a cheap house out in the middle of nowhere that’s huge but there’s no good places to eat and no places to hang out at or would I get an apartment in the city where there’s lots of restaurants and places to hang out at?

We both agreed – an apartment in the city.

I personally know some people who got a huge house in the middle of nowhere and they have to commute to work an hour and a half to and back every single day.  I said I’m not doing that!

I asked him, how are we ever going to get our $4 million dollar home?  I’m not going to waste $1 million dollars on a crappy shack house, either.  I’d like a nice home after we worked so hard for that money.

I told him the options are:

• mobile homes
• Condos
• Town houses
• and staying at our parents for now

I’d be content with a Town Home or Condo when we’re ready to get one – I don’t have to get a $4 million dollar house.  He agreed that we’ll probably get a Condo or Town House.

I don’t know what is congress and the senate doing in California, but it doesn’t seem like they’re doing anything to lower the prices here of the homes.  NO ONE I KNOW MAKES A MILLION DOLLARS. EVEN THE PEOPLE I KNOW THAT HAVE THE HIGHEST PAY JOBS DON’T MAKE ONE MILLION DOLLARS IN A YEAR.  They’d solve homelessness if they didn’t make rent so high – seriously!  Someone who makes $15-$20 an hour could get their own apartment with no roommates if they’d just lower the rent.

If I didn’t know anyone here, I couldn’t accept the low pay job that I’m at!!!

I had two job offers – one had a higher pay but no future.  The lower pay job I started out at entry level, but I can advance so I took the lower pay job for the experience.  It’s not about the money for me.  It’s if I’m getting the right experiences or not.

If I keep staying at this low pay job, it’s going to take forever getting our $4 million dollar home.

God removes anyone from my life who is no good for me.

I used to feel sorry for this one Internet friend I had.  He has no friends where he lives in Texas and one day he just messaged me out of the blue on Twitter and so I thought I could be like an Internet friend to talk to whenever he needs someone to talk to.  The more he spoke about politics and religion, the more I was annoyed by this person.  I tried to be nice to this person because I know this person has mental health issues.  However, the straw that broke the camel’s back was when he told me that I needed to tone down my views and that I need to stop making enemies.  Who says I was making enemies?  I was weeding out the fake people in my life to see who would stop being my friends over what I believe in.  How dare he questions my beliefs when he openly admits he’s mentally unstable and he knows I’m more stable than he is?

I said, excuse me?  So I can see all day in my feed how he insults my Christianity religion, yet he has a problem with things that I support and I can’t voice my support for things I support but he can say whatever he wants even if it offends me?

He’s now on his Twitter page complaining about he can’t stand people who are really big into politics.  I’m thinking to myself, and I can’t stand people who feel sorry for themselves all day as if they’re the only person in the world with situations.  I’m so glad he eventually stopped being friends with me and I hadn’t spoken to him in a long time.  I lent him some money when he was homeless and he didn’t even pay me back – I was never expecting a broke person to pay me back, anyway.  I just noted how unappreciative he was for my help when he was in a tough situation and he thought he could offend me.

I could not put up with seeing him tweet stuff insulting my religion and Christianity.  I was thinking to myself if he thinks what I believe in is nonsense why did he want to be friends with me?  I’m not going to be friends with someone who insults everything that I believe in!

Sometimes, there’s no point in being nice to these kinds of people and I distance myself from them.  I told him just because God doesn’t exist for Him doesn’t mean He doesn’t exist for me and I said you know why God exists? Because He removes toxic hypocrites like him out of my life and then he unfriended me after I said that.

The nerve.  Why am I not allowed to tweet my views yet this person is allowed to tweet insulting and offensive things about my religion and he thinks I should still be friends with him?  At some point we have to remove people from our lives that are no good for us.  If he wants to wallow in his self pity all day, he can do that on his own time, not mine.  I could be sitting here all day feeling sorry for myself saying I’m in my early 30s, I should be married, why am I not married with a family?  Do I do that?

No, instead I’m spending my time building a relationship with a friend that appreciates me, and hopefully one day we will get there.  Good grief!

Going to the Gym with a crush.

Going to the gym with someone I am interested in makes it even more fun.

He tells me that I should drink only water and that soda is bad.  He’s like 90 lbs while I’m 145 lbs.  He used to be really chubby, too and he lost a lot of weight.  I told him he can take some of my fat.  I need to be his size and he needs to be my size.

I said to him before when I would go by myself, I’d just stay ten minutes in the hot tub then leave.  It’s great that he is going with me more to the gym.  We stay for at least 30 to 45 minutes on the treadmill.

Sunday Funday:

Good times.